Love Will Save The Day

I had a rough day...I got rejected from yet another job due to "lack of experience". What's most frustrating is that I think I am qualified for so many positions, even those that seem to be the easiest to do. I recently applied at the zoo for an admissions position. Today I learned that the reason why I was rejected was because I didn't have any experience using a cash register. I would think that would be something to easily train for. Honestly, I wanted that job so badly too. I thought that I would get it because my aunt works for the hiring committee too. I wasn't banking on it, just extremely hopeful. I was so emotional that I started crying when I found out. I didn't even realize that I wanted it that badly, but I think that this job searching is really taking a toll on me. I was holding my baby cousin when I found out and she just looked at me, and saw the tears running down my face. She gently touched my cheek and then hugged me. That was all I needed. Sometimes I can't help but weigh my whole future on one job application, just to be let down. But, I know that it's not the end of the world. I've got to pick myself back up and keep looking. 

I noticed that my booty muscles were so, so sore today, which indicates that I have a great workout yesterday haha. So woot, woot! I have been noticing that my body is becoming leaner. I've lost about 1/2 and inch on each of my calves, about an inch on my thighs, and almost 2 inches on my stomach. Sometimes, it depends on when I measure myself though. I try to always measure in the morning, that way my measurements are most accurate. I'm very thrilled that I'm starting to see results! My pants fit a little bit looser, and soon hopefully everything will be fitting a little less snug as well. I've been terrible lately with my diet. I've eaten massive quantities of homemade mac and cheese twice this week! Tomorrow is chicken and salad-very healthy. I've got to stop this binging though. I really don't know how to control my portion controls. I think that a good rule to live by is to eat when you're hungry and stop when you're full, but since I'm trying to lose weight, I'm wondering if that's so smart. I'll just have to play it by ear. As long as I'm still making progress, then I'm not going to over think it too much. Anywho.....

I've chosen....drum roll.........................

"You Gotta Be" by Des'ree

Love and all that,

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