Stop. Look. Listen

Okay, I know this is a promise I have been making for a long time. I may have felt it was possible before. I'm finally realizing that I know it's possible and that I'm going to make it happen. I've always said that I'm the only one who can lose the weight that needs to be shed on my body, and dang it! I was not listening to myself. I am the only one who can put the work into getting the results I want to see, my parents want to see, maybe even my friends want to see. I really needed to reassess what it is that I'm looking to accomplish in this journey. I'm tired of being told that I can eat this or that, and not other things. It really is my life, and I'm going to make my own decisions. But, I cannot just eat something out of spite for my parents. I will eat whatever it is that I choose, but I have to reasonable, for my own sake. From this day forward, I vow to start focusing and putting all of my energy into getting in good workouts, eating the right foods and in the right proportions. I have to allow myself to eat bad foods every once in awhile. I realized that when I deprive my mind from eating comfort foods like pizza or ice cream or candy or chips at least once a week, I will binge for days. And the whole point of me losing weight is to better my body and my life. I know that I can lose weight by only drinking fruit juice and eating salad..but I can't imagine doing that for the rest of my life. I want to be able to keep the weight off for years to come. I want to know that I can lose weight eating foods that make me happy and taste good. (Who wants to be miserable while losing weight?-It just doesn't seem worth it to me.) Anywho.. later today I'm going to the gym. I haven't been in days..actually a week to be exact. That is the longest time since I began working out that I haven't been to the gym. I'm nervous to see how it has affected my routine, especially since I haven't been eating as healthy as I should have been to compensate for the lack of exercise, let alone- in general.


Hope today goes great though, and I hope you all enjoy the rest of your weekend!

I was feeling a little nostalgic, just trying to gather myself and recollect my thoughts.

"Closing Time" by Semisonic

Love and all that,
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